Then there was one.....

the world took a wrong turn nearly 4 years ago when my twin sister got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer........sadly in August the news came that the treatments were not working...........its funny how you put yourself inside a bubble while all seems to be going well........you forget it can be fatal because it's being treated..........but then the bubble popped................

since August life has been a roller coaster ride............my sister has been in hospital since the end of August........

many of you will have no idea this has gone on but a lot of the ladies who i have met personally have known the whole time and quiet a few assisted with support in various ways thru the years.............

So this is thanks to you for all the support I have received........

the emails, text and phone calls..........

you know who you are..........

THANKYOU

we have a big family but no other siblings arrived until we were 8 years old so I feel like I have a whole different life at times that they know nothing about............

feeling quite isolated.......

yes my Mum dressed us identical..........every photo we had exactly the same clothes........occassionally the same but different colours............

she chopped our hair short not too long after we went to school as it was to hard to get 2 girls ready with long blond hair and onto the school bus run in time..........

This photo below taken when we were about 10 years old......the short hair had grown and this is the 1st photo I found with completely different outfits on..........not long after this photo my sister got her hair cut short and I kept growing mine............much to everyone's joy I am sure as we finally looked different......so they could tell us apart even though we are not identical twins...................

The last 5 months have taken there toll..............especially the last few were I became carer for my Dad too as he had a major op.......something I very willingly chose to do but it had to be done.......but there were some hiccups along the way.........

all aspects of my life were OUT OF CONTROL.........

And other sad realities of life became clear..........

So I won't be back for a little bit..........we have only made decisions for Christmas today...........

I do know some sleep is high on the cards and some quiet slow time at home............

but blogland is were I run away too so I will not be deserting you........

you have been my companions at all hours in the middle of the night when i can't sleep...........I have wanted to comment on many posts but it is a little harder on my phone and sometimes my brain can't think of the right thing to say at 3am............

As Grace said on my last post "someone some where is much worse off them me"

it's what gets me thru lots in life and it is my first thought when I think things are bad..........
Goodnight........and hugs to those who are like me and not having the happiest Christmas for whatever reason......

Catch you later.............
Chookyblue............